A couple of months ago, I vanished from this site without a trace while I still owned about 8-10 teams that I was managing (at least 4 of them were progs).

I wanted to let everyone who might've been worried that I am alright and more importantly wanted to apologize to all of the team owners and especially progressive league owners for my lack of warning, notification or just basic respect for your time, energy and resources.

It feels unfair to say this when I know so many have had it so much worse, but 2020 really took a toll on me and I let it effect way too many aspects of my personal life.

When I first joined this site, it was fun, and a great escape from the responsibilities of my real life. I've always had a bit of a struggle with anxiety and mental health and as the year went on I found myself more and more stressed from finances, toxic relationships with friends/family, more responsibilities at work and more. This led me to some pretty heavy alcoholism and even more weed usage than usual. I found myself taking even more teams on this site to give me something to focus on that wasn't draining my energy as much, but I realized that A) I no longer have the time or energy to commit to all these teams and B) I have much more important things I need to work on and this site is just an excuse to stay away from those things.

I felt like I had to quit cold turkey in order to help get things back on track, and let me tell you, my days have been a lot better without worrying about checking results and rotations multiple times every day

I still have a lot to work on personally before I feel like I can have the time and attention to spare to give this site another shot. I miss this site and community very much, and hope you guys will welcome me back someday if I do decide to come back.

Glad to hear you are okay! Take care of yourself, and know that we will all welcome you back with open arms if that day comes. Have a wonderful 2021!

Your health and personal well being is far more important than anything here. Stay strong and take it one day at a time.

What they said.

mptrey, thanks for the update and for your brave honesty. You are not alone in what you've been experiencing. Hang in there, stay in touch to the extent you want to do so, and dive back in here when/if you're ready. Go well and stay safe, brother.

Hoping for the best, Trey.

I hope your situation keeps improving and I hope to maybe even see you back here one day. Take care and happy new year!

Thank you so much for letting us know. I know that I wasn't alone in being seriously concerned when you disappeared suddenly. I hate that it was because of what you were/are going through, but I'm glad that you're taking care of yourself!

Peace and love to you trey, hoping 21 will be better than 20

When someone seems to suddenly drop out of the picture, this board almost universally hopes only that things are ok with that person. Certainly no exception in your case, Trey. Glad to hear you're okay and hope the worst is behind you. Hope you and everyone else here have a better 2021.

And it's been a long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell my myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass

Hey bud. That is a bummer to hear. What I can say is that over the last two years or so, I have gotten to know a bunch of people on this site a lot better than I ever used to. I can assure you a bunch of us are dealing with life situations that are at least adjacent to yours. You aren't alone. Hmu if you ever need a random ear and good luck. You always have a virtual family here.

Take the time off, get your head right and take care of yourself and when you decide the time is right come on back and if you don’t i wish you all the best.