An apology of sorts:
I don't think people understand the ******* anxiety this league puts me through. I labor through draft decisions, and when it becomes apparent that no more picks are coming up, all of that anxiety spikes when trying to make a proxy list, particularly one seven-deep. I knew the #1 guy I'd take, but the order of 2-7 was impossible to determine at the time for me. I spent more than an hour trying to make said list anyway, freaked myself the **** out, and so sent the #1 guy I knew I'd pick over the rest. That guy was Joakim Noah. The three leading candidates in the 2-7 were Drexler, Butler, and Vucevic. All of them got picked, so even had I sent a four name list, they all would have been taken.
I woke up early - for me - to work on this before work. I saw the comment about my proxy being picked being something that could have been predicted and solved, and it sent that anxiety into overdrive. I went through the decision making process in a rush and was sure I made the wrong decision. So I finished getting ready for work to continue to think over my decision to make sure I was making the right decision. After all, this league requires $50 and hours upon hours of prep time. At least it does for me. I hate rushing (what I think of as) important decisions. It makes that anxiety even worse.
I understand that waiting on someone can be annoying; I've been there, done that, many times, in this league as often or more often than others. I won't bring up names. Ultimately, I don't care to wait. I understand that we're all eager to make our picks; this is the FUN part - or supposed to be, anyway. I understand that the majority of this world goes to bed before midnight and wakes up well before noon. I don't and probably won't ever if I remain in my current career, which I intend on doing.
I'm not posting this as an excuse. I'm not asking for an apology, for permission to continue to operate as I have, or even for understanding. I suspect that level of empathy is non-existent in some. I'm sorry that my schedule, my process, and my anxiety causes you the inconveniences that it does. I truly am. If I'm sure of a guy (or 2 or 3 guys), I'll send a proxy just like I always have. If I'm not, I won't, and I wouldn't expect anybody else to do so either.