Posted by topdogggbm on 8/18/2022 9:46:00 PM (view original):
I started HD in '07 and couldn't make a S16 in 60 seasons. Quit. Spring of '17 I return with a vengeance. After learning the game from a combination of 0nly, benis, and arfy (in that order) I became one of the elite of the elite coaches in the game. I led the way in two different chat groups way before discord. One with veterans of the game and some close friends I've made over the years, the other was for new guys that I mentored. My coaching tree and my communication ran rampant thru the game. I was on fire like NBA Jam.
Decided to move up to D1 as my career in the lower divisions ran its course. I started off with 2 titles in D1 fairly quickly with tier 2 type schools. Moved up to mostly A+ baseline schools across the board. And in my mind, piman314 here I come! Right?
Wrong. I now SUCK and can't win anything. If firing was in play, I'd be canned at one school, and probably heading that way in another. I now just go thru the motions and complain (not real complaining. Crybaby half joking complaining!). Haven't won in over a real life year and it's driving me insane.
The first part of that was buttered up to make the real part of the story, my downfall, more entertaining. I know many have played and never won big. And that's tough. I get it. But it's equally tough when you're used to winning and it just stops happening. Some of my most fun times in HD was when I was active in the community, and helping coaches with EVERY question I got, and then some. Now it's rare I even answer a sitemail after reading it (sorry guys!). I'm like the grinch of HD now. Bah humbug!
Would be nice to find that fire again. But I'm afraid it's burnt out. I'll still be here until I win at least one more tho. So when that happens in 2027, I'll come back here and bring joy!
i know it sound brutal but, go retire for like 4-6 months and hopefully you'll find it again. the biggest mistake i ever made in HD was not retiring when i got super burnt out the first time. i found ways to amuse myself, building a d2 super conference, staying on the forums and stuff, mentoring, but i continued to carry 3-4 teams throughout which i neglected horribly, and that neglect and suckitude just ate at me and ruined the actual coaching part of the game for years. could have replaced 4 years of being 'retired in place' with 4 months of actual retirement and it would have been much better.
i guess there is the risk of not coming back, but if that's the answer, so be it. for me, i had my lower division and higher division success all at once, all up front, and i just ran out of goals. but having goals you aren't burning to achieve isn't much different. eventually i had a new goal and the fire to chase it, like 5 years later, and i had some really good times. then i retired again but here i am again... a bit burnt out with my 1 team but you know, i have gotten a bunch of enjoyment out of 3.0 and stuff, its all good. and also in there, i found several years (including now) where i'm not really goal chasing but just kinda having fun, i did a lot of running new sets and switching teams which i enjoyed as well. but the breaks REALLY helped make that all enjoyable.
edit - i guess i'll also add, you've accomplished enough, you really have nothing to prove, you may want to just try to mentally disengage from the success chasing. its a totally different approach, when its about winning versus screwing around having fun. when i came back to 3.0 i wanted to learn the new system and win, i set some success goals but i started winning too quickly and decided to re-retire after just 3 seasons, even though i had over 3 years 100% retirement going into it. the success chasing just wasn't doing it for me. but then after a couple months i decided to co-coach with chap and we were just having fun and running weird schemes like fb/zone and fb/fcp (i guess not that weird but we both had limited success and wanted to play with it, and we did so at kinda ****** schools to bring a fun challenge), and i did take like a month or two of known to be temporary retirement after the co-coaching and before getting my own team again. but i've pretty much been having fun the whole time on a non-success chasing path for a couple years now. i loosely aspire to stop sucking at florida a&m some day, i always figure that at some point i will turn it on but mostly, that time is always 6 months out for a variety of reasons, things i need to do, learning to coach triangle or i'm not really even sure what i've been doing this whole time. its all good though. i also know that if i start success-chasing again, i have a year tops before retirement, and i'm not super keen to start that clock.
8/19/2022 12:03 PM (edited)